4.04.2003 :::
 
All units be advised: due to the lack of any measurable progress along the Femme Fatale front, command has ordered a complete disengagement of all forces from the sector, effective immediately. Reconnaissance team Phi will remain in place. Command has authorized recommittment only upon Phi confirmation of a substantial breach in enemy lines. Redirect all available forces to the Deo and Nosce sectors immediately.

::: posted by Peter at 00:57

3.31.2003 :::
 
The following is a passage from Children of the Mind by Orson Scott Card:

"Will the kind of love I have for you be enough? To reach out to you when I'm in need, and to try to be here for you when you need me back. And to feel such tenderness when I look at you that I want to stand between you and all the world: and yet also to lift you up and carry you above the strong currents of life; and at the same time, I would be glad to stand always like this, at a distance, watching you, the beauty of you..."

After reading it tonight, I began to wonder: am I capable of such a love as this? Am I capable of any love beyond phileo? I know I'm still able to have romantic feelings for a woman, but as yet, such feelings are always sheltered in secrecy. If put to the test, all pretense and whispering aside, would I be able to put off my fear of disappointment and betrayal and love again with my whole heart? In my youth, I understood what love youth brings. Now my heart has aged well beyond my body, and I'm afraid it can't look beyond the past. Have I so soon fallen under the curse of age?

::: posted by Peter at 00:30