7.11.2003 :::
 
I feel very strangely tonight. I can feel a selfishness within my spirit, roiling and calling out where before was silence. It seems tidal in nature, coming and going as a matter of course. I believe it stems from my desire for happiness, enticing me to place that desire before the happiness of others. Combatting it will be easier when I more fully understand the scope of its power. I don't yet know if it's merely a shadow my present fatigue is turning into a monster or a dragon lurking in a dark corner of my soul.

::: posted by Peter at 01:53